What Are My Goals?

The next 3 or 4 posts all have to do with what I am passionate about!

Financial - To be financially stable is my goal here.  I really need to find another job so that I can achieve this goal.  I hate having to depend on others financially.  Take today for example, today I had to call my aunt yet again to have her fill up my gas tank.  I am also out of smokes and I'm barely making it by puffing on my electronic cigarette.  It sucks!  Probably tomorrow I will be without internet and have to go to the library to use their WIFI.  I am not asking to be a millionaire, I just want to be able to support myself on a monthly basis.  So tomorrow, I will be looking for a job on the computer whether it is at home or the library.

Relationships - I have a lot of work to do in the relationship category.  I kind of like being single but at the same time I get lonely too.  I have a lot of friendships but they are mostly, if not all, online.  That is okay but I like hanging out with people in real life too.  I definitely need improvement in my relationships with family.  From my extended family, to my mom, siblings, and especially my kids.  The one relationship I need to work on the hardest is my relationship with myself.  For the most part, I just do not like who I am!  Sure I like things about myself but the negatives outweigh the positives.  I guess, again, that is what this whole blog is about!

Fitness and weight loss goals - There is always room for taking better care of yourself and I am no exception to that.  I, for the most part, like how I look.  I do have about 30 pounds of baby weight I would like to lose.  I would also like tighter stomach muscles again.  I have been doing 100 sit ups frequently and they seem to be helping!  My diet, or choices of food I way, is a joke tho.  I tend to gravitate towards sugar and carbs.  I should probably look into additional ways to exercise to keep fit as well.  I also believe that personal hygiene need to be addressed here.  For awhile, I'm talking months, i was not taking care of myself hygiene wise.  I was showering only when I had to, about once a week on average.  I wasn't brushing my teeth, I'd change clothes only when I showered and I was only brushing my hair after a shower as well.  As a result of this, I need to go see a dentist and when brushing my hair before, I would get awful knots out and now my hair is't nearly as long as it was.  My hair went from down to my shoulder blades to shoulder length.  Well for the past week and a half or so I have been showering, getting dressed in clean clothes and brushing my hair every day.  What a difference in my mind set and the way I feel about myself.  I can definitely tall a big difference.

Career or work - As I stated in my financial goals, I need to find a job!  I have called Papa John's to get my old job back.  However, Papa John's is not what I want to do for the rest of my life.  My ultimate goal is to own my own interior design/architecture firm where I can design houses from the ground up.  I want to create or help create the floor plan and be able to decorate the interior of homes.  To do this I will need three college degrees; interior design, architecture, and a business degree.  I have tried college sooooo many times and boy, do I struggle with it!  I just wish I could finish what I start.  I seem to have poor self-discipline skills.  One day I WILL get there!